The Mansion and Her Twenty-One Grams

***Warning this essay deals with suicide and the mechanics of the deed.*** If you find this triggering please call 833 456 4566 June 14, 2022 I was 16 years old for a seemingly very long time, I like to kid about and say I was for at least five years. Those last two or three […]

Ice Water Mansions Revisited

May 27, 2022 Mom had killed herself the night before, my 17th birthday. I was stood leaning against the counter where the dishwasher was. My father was stood glaring at me from few feet away, stood in front of the kitchen sink. My brother was stood in the doorway that was the vestibule to the […]

Lazarus

April 18, 2022 It was not long after Jesus began his mission that John the Baptist was arrested because he had pissed of Herod-Antipas, the Governor of Galilee. Antipas had married Herodias the divorced wife of his half brother Phillip – Thomas, and John the Zadok repeatedly condemned the marriage in public declaring that it […]

Thoughts

January 26, 2022 Yesterday was fucked up, I took my truck in to the shop to have them replace the windshield washer fluid pump, 6 hours later having had to switch trucks and move all my kit in to a new truck I finally got out of there. Then because of that delay, my load […]

The Akasha

February 8, 2022 This whole subject of the Holy Grail really upsets people, I guess we should not be overly surprised by that. I mean after all, we are slowly chipping away at people’s fundamental belief systems. The problem with the grail is, with one hand it shows us the truth of our real history, […]

The Way Of It

January 17, 2022 This spiritual awakening, it never went the way that I thought it would. It has been full of waves and troughs and sometimes just weird shit happening. After my father’s relationship with Capon fell apart, he explored transcendental philosophies, which often involved him dragging my 11 year old self to some lodge […]

The Tween

September 18, 2021 J.R.R.Tolkein in his trilogy “The Lord of the Rings” begins the series with the novel “The Hobbit”. In his fictional world, he describes young people who are in their late teens to early twenties as tweens. Here in this article I am using the term in the same manner, though it is […]

Pitfalls

August 16, 2021 With 80 articles written, most of them dealing with information about The Holy Grail, and a few about the conditions that led to my grail quest, the one subject that I have not touched on is, the pitfalls of a spiritual awakening. When I began this quest back in the late 1990s, […]

Understanding Looniness

July 12, 2021 Reincarnation. It is a big subject with a lot of controversy around it. The Judean/Christian tradition does not allow for this as a possible end of life outcome. For that matter, neither does Islam. Islam too, is a created religion that was meant to sanitize religion and take the confusion out of […]

The 33rd Degree

April 23, 2021 Nothing is secret that shall not be made manifest; neither anything hid that shall not be known and come abroad. Luke 8:17 Freemasonry, a secret society, or so we are led to believe. It is not so much a society that is secret; I mean how can it be when most people […]

Gone Mad

October 31, 2020 As I stated in my first article, “Getting Organized It’s Been Awhile”, this blog is very different from my previous efforts at Woody Hollow Distributors. That blog concentrated almost entirely on the Annunaki and historical information where we talked about snow ball earth and other far flung topics, here too we will […]

The Mothman

October 24, 2020 Science has a problem called string theory. It is an idea that allows anything, anywhere, anytime to happen, or exist. The idea allows up to eleven different dimensions to exist simultaneously. The problem with that is, each dimension gets exponentially smaller. In and of itself, this is not a problem for you […]

Finding Hope

August 1, 2020 These articles are not usually consecutive, meaning they do not need to be read in any particular order. However, that said, my last article “Ice Water Mansions”, and now, “Finding Hope”, should be read in order. Yes Ice Water Mansion is a true story; yes, it really did happen to me, yes, […]

The Ice Water Mansion of her Soul

July 25, 2020 I was seven years old; the family was at a cottage in the Muskokas, a favorite vacation area about 2 hours north of Toronto. The family had vacationed in the area for as long as I could remember, sometimes with my father’s childhood friend and his family, other times with my mother’s […]

Suspended Belief

February 4, 2020 We left our last article with a discussion about religion, questions about what God was all about; and what amounted to the collapse of my having any kind of belief system. The above image, describes perfectly what my soul felt like, I was dead inside. It was an awful way to try […]

So it Begins

We left our last article with me not liking women very much, and with me knowing that I had to change. The question was how? Where do I begin? How do I even start to? All I knew for sure was that I was miserable, that I missed the nanny, and that I had no […]