The Mansion and Her Twenty-One Grams

***Warning this essay deals with suicide and the mechanics of the deed.*** If you find this triggering please call 833 456 4566 June 14, 2022 I was 16 years old for a seemingly very long time, I like to kid about and say I was for at least five years. Those last two or three […]

* Warning, this essay deals with suicide, and rape.*

If you find this triggering and need help, please call 833 456 4566 The Mansion and My Brother June 8, 2022 My brother is an asshole, sorry but there is no way to sugar coat that, he simply is an asshole. To date I have not spoken to him in 25 years, and I really […]

Ice Water Mansions Revisited

May 27, 2022 Mom had killed herself the night before, my 17th birthday. I was stood leaning against the counter where the dishwasher was. My father was stood glaring at me from few feet away, stood in front of the kitchen sink. My brother was stood in the doorway that was the vestibule to the […]

Eugenics What A Child Does Not Understand

November 26, 2021 This whole topic of Eugenics, it is big and it is ugly. We as a society have lived with its warped terribly bad science for the last 138 years. It has come to infect the planetary population as a whole. Francis Galton, who in 1883, coined the term Eugenics, which means good […]

The Shelf

October 2, 2021 Sat on a shelf, it was quite a strange unexpected place to be. I suppose that it started after the events of 1991–92. That year a number of events took place that were both filled with joy and incredible heartbreak. You might think that the birth of my probably not daughter would […]

The Tween

September 18, 2021 J.R.R.Tolkein in his trilogy “The Lord of the Rings” begins the series with the novel “The Hobbit”. In his fictional world, he describes young people who are in their late teens to early twenties as tweens. Here in this article I am using the term in the same manner, though it is […]

Pitfalls

August 16, 2021 With 80 articles written, most of them dealing with information about The Holy Grail, and a few about the conditions that led to my grail quest, the one subject that I have not touched on is, the pitfalls of a spiritual awakening. When I began this quest back in the late 1990s, […]

It’s Not Looney But Only Barely

July 4, 2021 The above image perfectly exemplifies how I felt about myself during the late 1980s into the early 1990s. In previous discussions, I have at length spoken about the conditions that brought me to this point. My soul was trashed, and I had no idea of why, or even how I would get […]

PTSD

February 28, 2021 PTSD, also known as Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, occurs when an overly distressing or traumatic event has happened in your life. Over the past few decades, more information about PTSD has come to the forefront. Unfortunately, it can often take months to successfully diagnose PTSD, and patients may have to wait for months […]

What If (Part 2)

March 6, 2021 The Canadian Indian Act is something so horrid, so incredibly unfair that it has led to genocide plain and simple. The Ministry of Northern Affairs is the federal department of our government that is charged with supporting indigenous peoples (First Nations, Inuit and Métis) and Northerners in their efforts to: improve social […]

Spiritually Unprepared

February 21, 2021 The night my mother suicided, the night I turned 17, my birthday, I believe my mother’s spirit came to me, and it was an unfortunate experience. Why? Whatever it truly was that descended upon me that night as I walked along Ellesmere Rd in Scarborough. It was black, stygian black. There was […]

Gone Mad

October 31, 2020 As I stated in my first article, “Getting Organized It’s Been Awhile”, this blog is very different from my previous efforts at Woody Hollow Distributors. That blog concentrated almost entirely on the Annunaki and historical information where we talked about snow ball earth and other far flung topics, here too we will […]

Finding Hope

August 1, 2020 These articles are not usually consecutive, meaning they do not need to be read in any particular order. However, that said, my last article “Ice Water Mansions”, and now, “Finding Hope”, should be read in order. Yes Ice Water Mansion is a true story; yes, it really did happen to me, yes, […]

The Ice Water Mansion of her Soul

July 25, 2020 I was seven years old; the family was at a cottage in the Muskokas, a favorite vacation area about 2 hours north of Toronto. The family had vacationed in the area for as long as I could remember, sometimes with my father’s childhood friend and his family, other times with my mother’s […]

Full of Confusion

January 18, 2020 We left our last article with me finding Alcoholics Anonymous, and beginning the recovery process. I really had no idea of what I was doing; all I knew for sure was that I had spent the previous 27 years being essentially absolutely miserable. I had thought that I had found a way […]

So it Begins

We left our last article with me not liking women very much, and with me knowing that I had to change. The question was how? Where do I begin? How do I even start to? All I knew for sure was that I was miserable, that I missed the nanny, and that I had no […]

Organizing it’s been awhile

Four years ago I used to publish a blog under an umbrella name, Woody Hollow Distributors. At the time I owned a small business by the same name. Unfortunately that business failed despite herculean efforts to make it a success. It’s not in my nature to drag people thru the mud, especially when they’re your […]